I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to reate expectations for myself

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create expectations as to what to write for myself here in breath

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create projections of expectations for self within my mind as the future as what i see i 'should be' and 'should do'

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear failure because of my expectations I've created for myself and thinking I won't meet up to my own standards

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to expect myself to change right away, creating expectations of perfection, not realizing this is just some desire to show self as a personality of the mind as "fitting in" and the projected idea that "my life is working"

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not face my fears of failure by standing up to it, forgiving myself for creating false expectations and hopes, and beginning here in breath, working with what is here available for me

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to "lose" myself in expectations

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe I can lose myself in expectations

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not simply work with what is here as breath and with pen and paper unconditionally for myself

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to breathe in unawareness, to not be aware of my breath in every moment

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to expect to get all this done in one moment

I forgive myself that I've not accepted and allowed myself to transcend my fears

I forgive myself that I've not accepted and allowed myself to transcend my dishonesties

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to suppress my fears, dishonesties, self judgements, regret, and self anger

I forgive myself that I've not accepted and allowed myself to realize I have self anger by suppressing it and not realizing I have self anger simply because I havent been outwardly expressing it because I fear to express anger due to fear of consequence


I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to live in fear of consequence

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not breathe through consequence

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear the future as consequence

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to manifest fears/pains in my stomach area

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to manifest fear in my body because I deliberately ignored myself for some time, ignoring what is best for all as one as equal

I forgive myself that I've not accepted and allowed myself to live what is best for all as one as equal

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for being dishonest

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for missing corrective application within a moment

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to rush myself within this process of self honesty and self forgiveness

I forgive myself that I've not accepted and allowed myself to forgive me here unconditionally and release these mind-games from myself and delete them and never participate in them again

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to live in a picture-thought world of the mind

Interesting. I had found the topic on the desteni forum quite insightful. This topic on spitefulness I posted in April that is right below this post. I had posted the forum topic on my blog with the intention to share and to assist myself with perspective on spitefulness. Why I found spitefulness and the discussion on it so profound was that it is the deep truth of us all and the starting point for not only actions I myself have made in the past but the starting point for mostly everything all of us humans do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in deep guilt and regret because of actions I have made in the past which were spiteful in nature

I made the post as a guideline for my existance inherently. I look at it and still feel guilt and shame knowing I have done things from Thought/Spite=not living my forgiveness absolute

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to live my forgiveness absolute

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to worry about how I fit in personally with all this-valueing personality and personal interest over the simplicity of forgiving my guilt and shame in the moment here as myself

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to miss my forgiveness

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge my forgiveness

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fall from my forgiveness

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to run from who I am by thinking of how I fit into a presentation of self

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to turn myself into a presentation

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be obliged to present myself to the world in any constructed/fashioned way

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hate or judge people who seem to have a concocted presentation that is presented

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see that this is only a reflection and judgement of my own self when I am speaking

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be insecure about judgements

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to project my judgements/need to be dominant onto others


It is interesting to use forgiveness to bring self back to self. I have been applying forgiveness for about a year now and writing. Writing to self freedom. Self realization expand from expanding forgiveness.

Write yourself to Freedom -- Debug Spitefulness


This is the reason why process are long -- and is the nature of manipulation and powerplay and the use of knowledge to validate self as apparently more because of experience-- this do not allow all to be in fact equal -- write about this illusionary disease that in fect all in various ways and is prominent in relationships, family, and where the spoilt do not get their way


Spite fools only yourself

Inspite of spite -- the spit of poison will only delay you and timeloop you --and see -- forgiveness will be inevitable as will revelation

spit and spite -- the snake and the temptation

spite-- the true nature of the dishonest





Spitefulness is a deliberate act - within which the being act in deliberate spite towards another within the deliberate intention to harm / break-down / inferiorize - the being within this act of spitefulness believing that they're harming / breaking-down / inferiorizing another - when their world will turn 180-degrees upon themselves as their world will show the spite they are.

Spitefulness is a form of mental-rape - within which the being acting in spite deliberately want another to break-down/react emotionally - so that the one acting in/as spite can through harming another in such a way - gain their experience of power, control and superiority.

The other on the 'receiving-end' of the one acting in/as spite towards them, is self-responsible to not give their power away to the one acting in/as spite - because, in essence - if they accept/allow themselves to react = they're only spiting themselves within the very acceptance and allowance of reacting.
Understand that; you become that which you react to/towards - thus, the being reacting to another's spitefulness towards them = become the spite they accept and allow themselves to react to through blaming the being for causing their experience, which would then from the blame - turn into 'revenge' and would become spiteful to 'get back at them' - when in fact they, themselves allowed their own reaction in the first-place.

All of this is done in full-awareness as a means to attempt to control and 'gain power' one way or another through using spite - the only way to control and gain power within spite is through deliberate harm unto another within the manifested-form of deliberate mental-rape within which the being 'feed-off of' the others 'break-down' and experience a sense of pleasure within it - always.

Spite is also used under the guise of manipulation - wherein the being would, for example, deliberately go into a form of 'self-pity' / 'feeling sorry for self' - playing on another's 'weakness' through having the other becoming what you're mirroring to them as self pity and feeling sorry for self - wherein the other will then pity you and feel sorry for you and 'play the game' of spite = so you'd use spite as manipulation to manipulate your reality to 'get what you want' through abusing others to get it.

The being accepting and allowing themselves to 'play this game' of spite that you project unto them - also becoming spite, through accepting and allowing themselves to be manipulated by you - because they're abusing themselves through self-compromise by supporting you within your design of spite as manipulation.
What'll happen here is that; an event will take place wherein the being that 'played the game of spite under the guise of manipulation' will 'regret' 'helping you' when they realise how they compromised themselves within giving you what you want - because in giving you what you want - something had to be taken from themselves = then they go into 'spite' as 'regret' - directing anger to/towards you - and in the anger using spite to attempt to manipulate you again - to 'regain' their control/power in themselves/their world that they gave away to you through falling prey to your spite-through-manipulation tactics.

Wherein the spite the being become within anger - is invalid as reaction towards you - because they accepted/allowed themselves to 'fall for' dishonesty/deception within another as themselves and didn't take self-responsibility in standing up within what they'll accept and allow and what not. Thus - understand = you'll also become the dishonesty/deception you accept/allow within another which you support within another that you participate in with them.

Thus, you only always spite yourself within/as/through your own acceptances and allowances.

MyKey

Self perseverance is the courage to stand up and act in every moment self honestly.

See the mind uses 'personality preserving' = preserving the definition of itself in myriads of ways such as fighting for limitations, accepting the 'lesser' of self in every moment, utilizing justifications, reasons and excuses, postponements why not to change/transform/purify self here immediately.

'Personality preserving' exists when one fear losing that which you have defined you as from within the mind and will deliberately refuse to stand up in common sense self honesty as this would mean change and beings don't want to change because they 'love' their 'precious mind' oh so much because it's apparently 'who they are'.

So, you either exist in self perseverance, where you stand up in self honesty in every moment no matter what

or

You exist in 'personality preserving' of mind, where you fight for your limitations and use justifications, excuses and reasons not to transcend yourself through stopping the mind, but create designs as ways in manifested behaviour and thought to validate your existence of mind.

So observe yourself in every moment and see how you're able to assist and support yourself to transform 'personality preserving' to self perseverance - to in this stop preserving the mind as manifested memory to no more accept/allow self to be but of thoughts, reflections of thought, but to live self perseverance as expression of life in self honesty

Self perseverance: No more falling into the mind, but standing in stability in every moment as the self honest statement of who I am until this is done.

Veno

I forgive myself for alowing my actions and expressions to be determined by whether I am getting paid for it
I forgive myself for giving power to the system by reacting in fear to words like: bank and interest

-OrganicRobotSlayer

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be a slave to the future as money as GOD

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from money that is self

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to "hate" money

I forgive myself for ever accepting and allowing myself to "love" money

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be angry with money

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become frustrated and fuel my anger as "I hate money and I hate the system"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire money as self-interest

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create myself or any self as money

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to interpret the world through money

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to interpret a poor person with no money as having less worth than a middle-class person with nice clothes and more money

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be overly concerned with what my position is in the world, according to the nature of survival, and/or who has the most of anything

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to follow the fear of "surviving" within this creating myself as a survivalist self-interested robot

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think, "out of boredom"

I forgive myself for allowing myself to create thoughts out of a time-lag, or "since I have nothing better to do" not realizing this does certainly NOT support life and immediate corrective action as self-honesty as common sense as breath is neccessary for the realization of self as oneness as equality Here as That which Supports Life

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold back in posting because of self-interest, which is the same thing, as one self-interest is all self-interest, and to fear and regret and have emotions and feelings and thoughts all tied to any specific action whether getting on the computer, or eating, or writing, or sleeping, or speaking, or walking, or breathing, or shitting, it does not matter, as, if there is self-interest as thoughts feelings and emotions this equates ALL self-interest, so stop all self-interest, and STOP ALL ABUSE and Be Self-Honest

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create myself as definition as "too weak" to ever be self-honest

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be caught up in the time-trap as money

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create my future through thought, or attempt to create my future through thought, or attempt to predict the play-out of my future through thought

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be addicted to my mind, as time, as past present and future, as the now as consciousness

I forgive myself for being a slave to consciousness in the belief that I apparently "need" something

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to buy things I do not need

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the generation of money as self-interest, or the generation of thought as self-interest, or the generation of feelings and emotions as the self-interest of keeping/retaining one's set self-defined world that initally as MIND creates this world, as the mind is based on nothing but survival, money, fear and power

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create a picture out of life

I forgive myself for allowing myself to interpret other people through my mind, believing I know everything by the very basis of doing this, and defining "this as this" and "that as that" within my mind, not realizing my mind is actually full of nothing but blank empty lies that could never be trusted, not by me, or anyone, or even a plant as self

I forgive myself for creating pictorial interpretations as a future projection and then following these picture presentations in my mind, till I "get there" and then realizing I missed a moment here completely

I forgive myself for allowing myself to miss a moment here

I forgive myself for interpreting another's body language or movements or facial expressions through thought-projections-picutures-mind movements, which cannot be trusted as life as breath

I forgive myself for not realizing the only trust that exists is in breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use any belief, any system, any self-definition as mind to cover up the truth of who I accept and allow myself to be

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ever talk shit to my dad

I forgive myself for allowing myself to trust knowledge and information

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to deny or reject self-honesty as who I am

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define everything through thought, as a constant need to define things through the mind as according to how it fits in to a "specific mind-definition" that I have created for myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be a slave to my own mind as god

I forgive myself for not realizing that the only god that really exists is my own mind

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to wait for someone to show me the way

I forgive myself for not taking self-responsibility for my own life in complete self-honesty, as complete dedication to breath and self-trust and self-honesty here as life

I forgive myself for being obsessive within thought by defining all around me through language and interpretation and self definition

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge my posts as a name as self-definition as a protective mechanism as ego as thought as a manifested personality as a name as "what fits in to who I am" and "what doesnt fit in to who I am" as the play-out of polarities as mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from principle

I forgive myself for allowing myself to create a dream out of life

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare myself to others extensively

I forgive myself for allowing myself to come up with excuses as to why I should remain self dishonest

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to demean myself into believing I am incapable of something

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate me from all that is here through creating mind through thought

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to not consider equality for all life

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to have so much to forgive that I feel overwhelmed, confused, dishonest, not here, etc

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to evaluate common sense as life

I forgive myself for being obsessed by something

I forgive myself for not considering others self in honesty, and therefore become a self-obsessive bastard

I forgive myself for defining me as an outcast or an outsider and feeling bad fearful and confused

SELF-discipline